If you want liberty, you have to fight for it
If you want to be free, you have to sacrifice yourself
Life is about giving and not expecting anything in return. Giving your all and then hoping for the best. When I’m talking about sacrifice, I’m not talking about the small ones. You need to give up on the things that truly matter. The ones that once made you who you were. You have to be able to let go of these things and to slowly replace them with new ones. Although it’ll hurt every time you’ll have to let go of them, the pain will fade away every time. And soon enough, you’ll think you got used to losing a little bit of yourself every second of your existence. But the truth is, you’ll never get used to it. Giving away the things you love is like giving your dreams away. It’s like giving away the very things that keep you going. And it’s impossible to get used to this…This feeling of losing a bit of yourself every time…
The thing is, even though you have to give up on so many things, you know you have to let go of those things, because if you refuse to let go, you’ll end up tied to them. And this will keep you from getting the liberty you want so badly. So just like every one else, you slowly separate yourself from the things that matter to your heart. You separate yourself, you lose a little piece of your heart, just to feel the warm breeze of liberty. It’s all about being free after all.
I am letting go of the little I had
Loosening my grip, giving up the fight
Now what will fill my empty soul?
What will create a new hole?
One that hurts better?
A new love
Don’t call it that
It’ll break me into pieces and watch me as I fall
That’s what I said, I’ll fall
Wow. I haven’t changed a lot in one year. Although I’ve become more mature and I switched from being a college student to being a university student. Anyways, aside from those changes, I realize that not much has changed in the year 2013. Now whether this is a good or a bad thing can be subject for discussion. I’m still questioning ALL of my friendships. I’m unsure about my future and career. But at least I’ve got new projects and new passions to develop. Wish me luck, I could use some of that.
Losing friends is always a hard process, it’s also always hard to realize when you’re going through it. At first, you experience denial. That when you refuse to accept that a few people are drifting away from you. After this comes the “trying to make things work” stage. That’s also a form of denial, but this time you actually act uppon it. You try as hard as you can to make things work by organizing all kinds of stuff. You schedule, re-schedule until you finally realize that some things are just nott worth fighting for. You realize that all the time you’ve spent trying to reach out to that one friend of yours, you’ve neglected thr other ones. That’s pretty much where I’m at right now: it’s no longer denial, and I’m definitely not fighting anymore. It’s still hard though when you think about the fact that you’ve been the only one trying all this time. However, it also helps you realize that maybe some things are not worth fighting for and that sometimes moving on is the best solution to the problem. Actually, once you stop feeling guilty for not being able to keep this friendship alive, you start enjoying life again and you see that you’ve missed out on so many opportunities. I feel like losing friends can also have it’s great deal of good outcomes. I mean at least you know that the friends you have now, you don’t have to force things to make them work.
Let all the Earth cry out to God with joy
On you feet now, applaud God!
Bring a gift of laughter,sing yourselves into His presence
Know this: God is God, and God, God.
He made us; we didn’t make Him.
We’re His people, His well-tended sheep.
Enter with the password: “Thank you!”
Make yourselves at home, talking praise.
For God is
all-generous in love,
loyal gift of laughter,
always and ever.